I've been almost vacuum from this blogging world since I entered college. Sometimes I tried to write again in the middle of my activities, but it's wasted, I wasn't wrote any good post at all. Then I dicided to off from blog sphere. But I can't deny that I loooove writing, I love "curhat" :p, I love sharing with others, I love, taking pictures, I love dressing up, I love editing photos and videos, I love traveling, I love food, I love drawing, and so much more things I love that I wanna share to the world. The problem is the roadblocks in my way, like I'm so busy, I'm tired with the college tasks, I have no time, I have nothing to post, bad internet connection, bad devices, and more, and more...
And in every posts, I always promise to be more active on blogging, but I always break my own promises. Today, I decided to start it over again. I wanna write again, and share every precious moments in my life to the world. Exactly, there are so many things happened since I started my college life. Everythings come and go, up and down are passing by. I will write it here later.
So, let me re-introduce myself, if you may be have forgot me. My name is Sarah. My parents has given that name when I was born January 1995. It's not picked from "Sarah" the character in "Si Doel Anak Sekolahan" serial that famous in 90's. Actually "Sarah" was picked from prophet Ibrahim AS's wife that is beautiful (so it's like a wish from my parents to me), and "Sarah" means "princess" in Hebrew. My closest people call me "Chaah" (it spelled Cha - Ah) because I can't say "Sarah" when I was a little. Now (finally) I'm a fresh graduate of Communication departement, Andalas University, in , Padang, West Sumatera, Indonesia (maybe some of you are wondering where is it). Next I wanna jump in to the fashion bussines, maybe I can continue my education to fashion study (if you have any information about good and cheap fashion school in Indonesia, and/or scholarships to fashion study, please comment down below). Then, my very humble dream is to getting maried young LOL (I am serious).
So, talking about starting all over new, I'm thinking about change my blog title, my url, my header, and lay out, and... TA - DA !!! New things are coming! Hope it will be a good start.
Jun 7, 2014
Since I was kid, whenever I hang around with 2 of my childhood friends (one is in the same age with me, and the other is 2 years younger than me, so I'm the oldest one) people always thought that I'm the youngest. Whenever I walked with my step sister that only 1 month older than me, people also thought the same way, and I was like "I'm not the youngest! They're my peers! We're the same! I'm the oldest!". It's always been an annoying thought. Just because my body is soooo tiny (that time) people always think that I'm younger than everyone I walked with.
At kindergarten, elementary school, 'till junior high, I still being the shortest. My friends at school make fun of me and call me "liliput". Everytime I always cry to my mother and ask her to buy me suplements to improve my height. But still.... i was really short at that time.
Day by day my height started to increase, and I become a normal kid with normal height, so in high school nobody call me liliput anymore! :D (although my bf and some of my bestie still call me like that -_- so wutevaaa). I'm still the shortest between my childhood friends (hell yea), and the youngest one still the tallest and biggest (and people still thought she's our elder sister). But now I'm no longer mad at people about that. I enjoy being the shortest. LOL, I love it when people think that I'm still young or kid. I'm no longer pray to God to give me a tall body. Being petite is cuteeeee, lol :3 the point is we have to thank god for whatever He gave, although I'm not tall, at least I'm not too short, and I'm health! :D
But what make me unthinkable is for several days I hear again people ask my mom : "Anaknya udah kelas berapa, bu?" People still ask my mom where'd I school and in what grade still am I. -____-
Okay!!! It's okay! Aku Ra Popooooo~ I'm not mad, maybe It's because I still look like a kid now, so in my golden age I'll be stiil look like a teen. HUAHAHAHAHA XD
May 4, 2014
It’s the beginning of May. I decided to write again. I wish this begin a new better life too. My life was too busy recently and I’ve got NOTHING from that busy-ness. I ever planned last year (after the hard stuffs I felt) that I want a better life (yeah, people always want a better life, that’s why people are never been satisfied and always seeking for everything they don’t have yet), but what I meant as a “better life” in here is totally mean a BETTER life, ‘cause everything I felt I had in my life for several years are sucks.
What happened in my life after junior high school is, my dad’s dead, I lose my dream to have a complete and happy family as other’s have. I lose a chance to be a “daddy’s lil princess”. I lose a chance to have a normal family, with mother, father and sister(s) or brother(s) in there.
I breakup with some guys, and I start over the new that I wish would be a new ‘drugs’ for me and it still going ‘till now. I don’t know how it works ‘till now, cause I’ve suffering many hard stuff along this relationship and it’s more complicated ‘cause whenever I feel not happy with someone I can easily make a decision to cut a relationship, but not with this one. Yaaa, I feel happy. Really happy with him, then some jerk things are going to ruin my happiness. I feel more complicated in this relationship but I can’t just breakup with him and start a new fresh, cause my heart will never can be moved from him. Idk why.
Some rumors about me were also invented in high school, and it’s driving me crazy too besides I had to pass exam. And then I graduated from high school and feel like I’m free from something. I can runaway from my problems in high school. Then in college, I found some troubles too. Also troubles with my relationship, I breakup with him and thank God ‘cause we’ve made up.
Those are reasons why I feel my life is not worthy. I feel like I need something new that will make my life passionate and impassionade. I promised myself last year that I’ll find something to change my life, but I haven’t make any progress ‘till now. Feel like my life stuck on a point. I haven’t reach any of my goals (except ‘things I want to buy’).
|Red Blazer: vintage - Tanks and Skirt: unknown - Sneakers: Nike|
But then I realized, we had to make it through the hard stuff first, it’s gonna get harder before it get easier in life. But I’m just not sure about when will the hard stuffs over? Yap, that’s why people said life is a mystery. And that’s why we have ‘passion’ too. All we need to make our life challenging is to find our passion and live with it. I love to write. I love to write anything in my mind although it’s not important at all for others, but all the time since I started to write my expressive writings journal I feel all the way is good. I can control my emotion, I can write what I likes and what I dislikes. Maybe people wouldn’t care of what I think, but I wanna keep writing! Intensively, not only depends on my mood. I love fashion too. I love being looking good and comfy, I love cute stuffs and I love to mix and match –ing it. I love drawing and sketching. I love interior design. I looooooooove beautiful thingsss!!! I love laughing and make people laugh, I love comedy. And the most important thing is: I love being loved by people I love.
I think I was too often ignoring my passion. It’s a big fault. I have to start a happier life, I think I deserve it. So, I will run for it. I believe, my life is worth to be fighting for.