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May 3, 2013

Just Give Me A Reason

Two months passed since my latest post. I have to admit that I'm so lazy to do anything in my life with no reason. Maybe because I had so many troubles recently. So many troubles come from my family, my friends, my bf, and from inside my self too. I think I just need a little brain refreshment 'cause I feel stress! And thiss stress even make me loose my appetite! Yesterday I'm too much thinking about how to loose weight, but now it's so easy to loose weight by the stress.


The first trouble come from inside this house. I have so many schedule recently. So many campus activity and it all makes me exhausted. I often go in the morning and come home late in the evening and it all makes my mom mad. It makes my rarely spend my time with my family. But I really enjoy all the rush. My mom doesn't have to mad at me. She should be understand. Her daughter has grown and she has her own living. 

Vest: my father's - Shoes: GOSH 


Then, the 2nd trouble come from my friends. Actually it just come from a friend, but that friend has followed by the other friends so it feels like they're vigilante. I know the source of this problem is miss communication from me to them, but I think they don't necessary to give me a silent treatment because every problem has the solution if you want to talk. But yeah, I don't understand with they're mind, and if they're still mad at me, okay, no problem. I just have to think maturely and keep calm. It's nothing to talk with persons who always petty-minded. FYI, I do not hate them. I do not haters. I'm positive that everyone must have made mistakes, include me, because I'm human too. And there're no human that always 100% true. And if there're someone who hates me, no problem, it's their right. I'm so glad that I still have haters to remind me to be a better person, and I will always forgive them.





And the hardest problem I'm facing now, that makes me so 'galau' is a problem with my bf :'( everything happens too quickly. I can't imagine how can be a person I've well known and loved for so long can change easily after he entered a new atmosphere. I feel something different from him after we entered university. I'm in a different faculty with him. He was on Faculty of Law, and I'm on Faculty of Social and Political Science. We're always together in high school, we're on the same school, the same class, and always together. I know all his friends in high school. But now, since we separated by the faculty, I don't know with whom he's associate 'till he can changed like Power Ranger.
Well well well. I'll be glad if he changed into a  Power Ranger or other superhero character, but what the hell is he's changed into a person I never known before. He've bacome temprament, rude, busy, workaholics, careless, and arrogant. 
No, I'm not blame his friends, I even want to be acquainted with his friends, but I'm just under estimated. He thought that I hate his friends, but actually I'm not! Really! I just want him not to farget me while he was busy hanging out with his friends, I just want him not to talk rudely to me, I want him to be the old him that always polite, care, and happy. Is it too much? Is it too hard to do? :'( :'( Can you give me some recommendation to bring him back to the old him? Or how to make our relationship keep harmonic, please?




p!nk - Just Give Me A reason

Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren't all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them

Now you've been talking in your sleep, oh, oh
Things you never say to me, oh, oh
Tell me that you've had enough
Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

I'm sorry I don't understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
(Oh, we had everything)
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everythin'
And it's all in your mind
(Yeah but this is happenin')

You've been havin' real bad dreams, oh, oh
You used to lie so close to me, oh, oh
There's nothing more than empty sheets
Between our love, our love
Oh, our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
I never stopped
You're still written in the scars on my heart
You're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Oh, tear ducts and rust
I'll fix it for us
We're collecting dust
But our love's enough
You're holding it in
You're pouring a drink
No nothing is as bad as it seems
We'll come clean

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, oh, that we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again



Feb 15, 2013

Commniversary

Hello, friends :D glad to talk with you again ! 
Anyway, happy Valentine's for everyone who celebrate. Everyday is affection day for me, not only in Valentine's day.


So you ask me about what Commniversary is?

I must tell all of this to you about 2 weeks ago, 'cause Commniversary means Communication Anniversary. it's a birthday of my program study, Communication Science on Andalas University (I've told you that I study there, right? ;)


it's our 5th birthday. Yes, this program study are still young and growing. But I'm really proud being the a part of this program study! I bet you'll love studying here too! I swear there's no math, no physics, chemistry, and biology, there's no more those confusing subjects!
 left to tight: Heru, Ica, me, Yayas, and Fifi
Left to Right: Fifi, Ica, Maya, and me.

with Maya.

Aaaand, the best pasrt of this party was when the nominations announced. and surprise! I got "The Most Fashionable" 2013 award! Hohoho thankyou so much. I thought I didn't worth enough to get that award, but it was polling from my friends.
 pic from my instagram

with Engga. (a funny name, huh?  Whenever I say  'enggak' or 'nggak'  which means 'no' in Indonesia he'll turn LOL)
with seniors.

 I'm wearing a random skirt and  leather jacket from Forever 21.


Jan 25, 2013

Checklist (Pt. 1)

I'm not in a good mood guys. My grandmother and grandfather went to Bandung this month, and leave me and my mom here.
Soooo sad!! I really wanna join them, but they go when my holiday's over. It's not possible to me to skip my colleging activities.
Sometimes, it feels free and enjoy to be home alone, but in the night (then the electric wents off) I feel so scared.



'till monday to friday, I'm running my daily activities such as go to campus, hanging with frieds, etc, but when saturday and sunday comes.......... what shall I do alone in home ?!!!!! Lucky, my best, Yolly disposed to stay home with me and my mom, but only in Saturday night. -__-
Details: Dress by Up 2 Date, My Dad's jacket, Random Socks, creepers by GOSH.
 so, the "Checklist" for what I really want now is:
* a new leather jacket
* a spike cap
* a tattoo tights
* a new tutu skirt
and the most important is:
* friends to stay with me at home when my mom go to work!!!!!!!!!! 
and I don't know where I can get it all. I really wanna buy the spike cap and the tights but it's so hard to find the store that sell them in my town -___- it just a little possibility to get a new arrival fashion item here, so, the only way is to shop online. Nah ! Yes, I hate transferring, and waiting the gift come from online shopping. -__- it's going awry now..............

additional story :p
some of my besties gave me a little-absurd-late birthday surprise
  THANKYOU SO MUCHHHH !!! IT'S UNFORGETABLE !!! I LOVE Y'ALL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Jan 5, 2013

Happy (18) New Year !!

just a post / month? I think I'm such a lazy blogger. But I always make sure I have a prime time to write here.
sooooo this is post for this month. The first month in2013 ! January ! My best month for a year. Why ? I was born this month !

so say happy birthday to me guys !!!!!! I'm now 18 YO. I don't know is it still can be called as teenager, I wanna be teenager forever >.<
January also means HOLIDAY. I can meet up with my high school friends again, and can go down town with some of my college friends. I can forget all about my college task such as making papers, reports, clippings, and video, it's all tiring and boring.


Shirt by Ninety Degrees, Pants by Dust Jeans. Bag and Shoes by GOSH

Then, let me introduce my new friends, they are

my new hairclip
my new shoes <3
 


Today is my birthday, January, 5th. This is saturday. Hope you have a nice saturday ! :)))
xx